I am considering quitting my current job.. ive come to realize they treat me like shit and take advantage of me bc i dont fight back. My schedule got changed again without my knowledge!!! What the hell!!! And i found a place that will pay me almost 3 dollars more than what i make rn. Honestly, im really considering switching! Im tired of this job... ill have to update my resume. Ew.
watching filthy frank and smoking weed before i have to work at 4. My mom wants to go in and talk to my GM so im soooo scared i wont have a job after today DX maybe i should start working on that application...
me and my friends keep discussing plans to move out but i am So Poor... id have to work more.. and with my shitty ass job? Man.. im screwed..
i am currently waiting for one of my besties to get off work and hopefully hang out with her. If we cant go to her house im not sure we'll be able to.. my room is a fucking mess :( also i think my previous statements about hating my job were just because i was really mad at them changing my schedule and other shit.. i do like my job sometimes the way they treat me just sucks absolute ass
so much has happened in the past few days and i have realized that i am just such a piece of shit person. a terrible person. im manipulative, selfish and in general just immature. im going to try and work on myself because i cant stand hurting people anymore. i never intend to, but i always do. ive decided im going to keep my feelings to myself, and from here on out im not going to let my emotions effect me during any circumstance. i will hopefully become a better person. not everything is about me and i need to realize that. i need to stop nagging people. i am far too needy and i cant continue that, its just going to drag people down with me. ill continue to work on myself, but today was the last time im ever gonna talk about me or my feelings around anyone else. i dont want to lose the people i love, and im getting really close. i really really hate myself right now, im going over my whole life and picking apart everything ive done wrong. its hard to get better when you feel like you'll always be a piece of shit, but im really trying. therapy twice a week, im saving up for a psychiatrist to find out what the fucks wrong with me, and.. probably a lot more. i need professional help badly. it'll cost me so much money, but i really dont know what else to do. trying to help myself obviously hasnt worked well, so i need outside resources. i dont want people to hate me, but im causing it without even thinking. i hate the person ive become i hate everything thats happened to get me to this point and i just. wish i could restart my life.
